Wednesday, March 26, 2014

In The Limelight

I just celebrated my (gulp!) 33rd birthday yesterday, and good thing it wasn’t as depressing as I thought it would be as I didn’t really plan any celebration at all. I wanted to at first, similar to last year’s, but after some introspecting, I told myself I’d rather save up for the coming ‘rainy day’. 

My day started with a surprise, as my ‘auntie’ colleague from the 7th floor handed me a slice of chocolate cake from Coffee Bean, then gave me a hug. I was so touched! She’s a known terror to some, but I dunno, she’s always been really nice to me.

Then I also got a cheesecake specially delivered to my office by the sendee’s brother. That was really surprising as I was just having a chat with the sendee the previous day, and she was asking me what my birthday wishes are. The thing is, I wasn’t expecting her to give anything as she’s based in Australia, so after giving her some non-tangible clichés, I answered, “CHEESECAKE!” 

I also got a cross keychain from a female colleague, who’s a fellow believer, and some TWG macaroons from our new hire, a Taiwanese lady. My boss’ PA was asking why I’ve been receiving so many birthday presents. Then I answered, 

“Maybe I’m that nice?” 

What I got from her on my birthday was a raised eyebrow and a frown.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

What Made This Holiday Different?

I'm inside the plane as I write this, on my way back to Singapore after a little-over-a-week long holiday in the Philippines. Emotions are mixed, and several thoughts have been running inside my head, hence the urge to blog about them. There are some feelings of sadness as once again I had to leave my Mumski Wumski behind; feelings of happiness for the wonderful experiences and memories; feelings of regret for not meeting up with as much people as I would have wanted; and feelings of excitement for what lies ahead after all those confirmations, revelations, and answered prayers during my brief stay in my home country. (God is always awesome!)

But what really made this holiday different, as compared with my previous ones?

1. It was longer. 

On an average, I would only have around 4-5 days to spend back home. This time I had 8 days. Previously I wouldn't dare take longer holidays as I'd be fearful that I wouldn't have my work anymore when I get back. I would always feel that I'm dispensable and my bosses could easily kick me out. Yeah, it was tougher during my first few years; it's still tough at present, but I guess I can say that I have a greater sense of security now?

2. We traveled outside Manila. 

Thank God for friends who have cars! We went to Tagaytay and Baguio, as compared to my previous trips when my holidays we're only spent within the outskirts of the capital city.

3. I spent more quality time with my Mumski Wumski. 

It's been really a while since my last holiday in the Philippines (last was more than 2 years ago?). Sometimes I'd prefer my Mumski Wumski to fly over to Singapore and visit me rather than the other way around as it's cheaper and there's way lesser chance to bump into any of my godchildren. But since my Mumski Wumski just turned 70 this year, I came to a realization and said to myself that yeah, definitely she deserves more.

She was with me during my out-of-town trips to Tagaytay and Baguio, alongside my friends.

4. It was my first holiday trip to the Philippines together with my close friends from church. 

Have I told you before how much I love my church? From there I met some of the most wonderful people I know now who eventually I became friends with. Well, I planned this trip with some of them which is cool, but too bad not all plans were actualized and not everyone who were intending to join made it. (There's always next time!)

5. I was more inspired (and still is!).

'Nuff said. I will not further elaborate on this 'inspired' part for now, as I want to finish this post before the plane lands which is about *checks time* an hour and a half from now.

Yes! I still have time to take a nap!

Later guys! :)

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Cholesterol-free Thoughts

  • Since I paid for the renewal of this blog's domain name, it's just right to make use of it, correct or not? Seriously I need to go back to blogging, but why does it feel like I don't know how to write properly anymore, hence the bulleted style?
  • As I write this, I'm still in the office. Work's been good so far. One year and counting. 
  • Our general manager just resigned. His wife, who's also working for the company, also submitted her resignation letter a few days after. My boss' PA is planning to resign also. And they've been telling me how I'm "spoiling the market" (???).
  • I'm the only Filipino in my company, and the only non-Chinese. I don't want to think that it's a nationality or cultural thing, but the truth is, I've experienced worse before. I guess for the past years, I've been trained to persevere more, be more mature, and deal with difficult people in the workplace more effectively.
  • Having faith in God helps! There are things in life that we cannot control, and we all need to learn to accept that. God is the only One who's in control of everything!
  • As of this writing, as long as my boss still wants me, I'm staying.
  • My trip to Cambodia next week is something I'm really looking forward to. It will be my second time to go there, and since then, I've made a pledge that I will be visiting the country every year. I just love the place and the people!
  • Which reminds me, I need to plan and schedule my trip to Manila soon. LOL
  • Have you ever experienced having someone who has attachment issues with you? Tell me about it.

Friday, September 13, 2013

How Do You Keep The Music Playing?

I have this dilemma of whether I should renew this domain or not as it’s about to expire in a few days. I love my nick ‘gasolinedude’ ‘coz it sounds so cool and all, but as you can see, I haven’t been blogging for a long time so what’s the point of maintaining this site? Waste of money, right?

Blogging burnout? Probably. Blogging can be very stressful, and I’m not sure why. That should not be the case, right? LOL let me think… you know how other people would have high expectations of you, like update your blog regularly, read other people’s blogs and leave comments, or even organise blog events? It’s great at first ‘coz you’d feel that you’re somewhat needed, but I guess it already came to a point when I got tired of all of it.

Maybe I was also at fault. Though I knew that blogging is all about freedom of expressing and sharing to the whole world what you have, maybe… just maybe it came to a point when I was already blogging for the wrong reason, intention, and expectations.

Seriously, I want to go back. I miss a lot of things in and out of my own little kingdom here, but we’ll see…

One step at a time?

P.S. Where are the bloggers of my generation?!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

This is NOT an "I-am-Engaged" Post

More and more people I know are getting ‘engaged’.

A former colleague and close friend’s boyfriend recently proposed to her in one of the islands in Maldives. Another close friend (and former wingman) got engaged also, and he bought a ‘perfect cut’ diamond engagement ring for his now-fiancée which costed him almost a quarter-of-a-million pesos.

Talk about extravagant and costly proposals!

Then there’s Jojo Lakwatsero

Should I get pressured? No lah! Probably my mom, relatives, and some friends are more pressured for me than I am, but the thing is…

I know I’m not getting any younger, but age is just a number, right?

And would I choose to spend my time with the wrong person, rather than wait for the perfect woman, the one being prepared by God for me?

I’d rather wait for His perfect timing.


A friend of mine once asked me,

“What do you really look for? Maybe you have very high standards?”

I thought at first I already knew what I want, but last year was so eventful that my so-called standards also changed.

Attraction still has to be there, of course, and she must be sensible and a great conversationalist. I’m removing the “low-maintenance” requirement (which I thought was the most non-negotiable on my list), because I realized that every relationship needs to be ‘highly maintained’ to flourish and last, but I’m also adding two more:

  • We must both share the same faith (aka she must also be a Christian).
  • She must also have the heart for missions, just in case God calls me to do missionary work full-time.

So no quarter-of-a-million worth engagement ring for her, whoever she is.