Sunday, February 17, 2008

Giving Up The Crown


I'll be leavin’ my kingdom soon.

Just the thought of it already saddens me. I’ve been a “puppet” royalty for more than a year already, and I guess this is the right time for me to move on and move forward to a different direction. I’m ready now to give it all up.

I will surely miss my territorial army. My "gas boys". My mechanics. My office staff. My sanitation engineers. My security officers. Even that Katya Santos-lookalike barista at Starbucks beside my office. Darn! (Can’t believe I’m givin’ up on her! Nyahaha!)

What triggered this decision of finally leavin’ is when I started feelin’ “unhealthy”. I’ve been experiencin' chest pains, palpitations, and high blood pressure lately. Not to mention my chronic depression, anxiety, and that 15-lb. gain (Huhuhu!). The stress, the pressure is just too much for me I can’t take them anymore. I feel that I’d die soon if I stay longer. I have already sacrificed a lot right after the passing of this crown. I mean, why do we work in the first place? First, for the family. Second, for ourselves. What’s the point of makin' all these sacrifices? Money? Prestige? Fuck, I left my 64-yr. old mom ALL ALONE in our humble abode, for God's sake! Somehow in the process, I have lost myself. I don’t know myself anymore.

It’s not worth it. Definitely not worth it.

Now, I’m excited for tomorrow.

15 comments:

  1. pareho tayo.. di ko na kilala ang sarili ko.. tsktsktsk.. di ako to.. emo talaga ako namimiss ko na ang paglalaslas ng pulso.. hay.. hehe

    sana maging okay ka na.. ano number nung kamukha ni katya? yummy din ba yun? grrrr

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  2. @ ferbert: Pag nadaan ka dito, makikita mo ang hinahanap mo. Nyahaha! = P

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  3. may tag nga pala ako sayo.. matagal na.. nakalimutan kong sabihin sayo.. --> CLICK MO TO

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  4. ano bang hinahanap ko? naghahanap ako ng pera eh... makikita ko ba yun dito? ayos! ibig sabihin bibigyan mo ko ng pera? hahahaha

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  5. Nyahaha! Buhusan kita ng gasolina tapos sindihan ko, gusto mo? Hehehe! = P

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  6. Hmm... so you can no longer be the Gasoline Dude? :-P

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  7. @joyfulchicken: Darn! So you mean I have to think of another nick for myself? Sheesh... just too stressful. = P

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  8. Eh san ka susunod na mag-tatrabaho?

    - utakgago. :P

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  9. dumaan.

    pwedeng magpagas kahut walang kotse?

    full tank please. ;p

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  10. @ utakgago: Initial plan's to go to Singapore for a vacation, and at the same time, look for work. Pero di pa din sure. Still have to work on it.

    @ kalansay: Nyahaha! Pwede nten i-bote. Gusto mo? = P

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  11. magiging gasoline dude ka pa rin ba? =)

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  12. @ Coldman: Hmmm... iisipin ko muna. Kakastress maghanap ng bagong identity eh. Hehehe! = P

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  13. tsktsktsk.. ano na susunod na titulo mo? tsktsktsk.. wala pa akong update sa blog.. busy.. weeee! add mo ko YM kuya.. kase matatagalan pa update ko.. dun tayo usap.. alienferbert yan id ko... :D

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  14. lahat naman yata dumadaan sa ganyang parte ng buhay. ang hirap talaga pag mag-isa mo nang tinataguyod ang sarili mo, minsan may mga desisyon at bagay ka pagsisihan at iiwanan. right now, i've been contemplating if i should stay here in our company. fuck my work. i really hate some people around me. gusto ko na ring mag-resign. sama mo ako sa mga pangarap mo..hehehehe

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  15. @Jeck: Tara! Wala na kong plans of stayin' much longer here. Balak ko mag-Singapore, but I'm still workin' on it.

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