I'll be leavin’ my kingdom soon.
Just the thought of it already saddens me. I’ve been a “puppet” royalty for more than a year already, and I guess this is the right time for me to move on and move forward to a different direction. I’m ready now to give it all up.
I will surely miss my territorial army. My "gas boys". My mechanics. My office staff. My sanitation engineers. My security officers. Even that Katya Santos-lookalike barista at Starbucks beside my office. Darn! (Can’t believe I’m givin’ up on her! Nyahaha!)
What triggered this decision of finally leavin’ is when I started feelin’ “unhealthy”. I’ve been experiencin' chest pains, palpitations, and high blood pressure lately. Not to mention my chronic depression, anxiety, and that 15-lb. gain (Huhuhu!). The stress, the pressure is just too much for me I can’t take them anymore. I feel that I’d die soon if I stay longer. I have already sacrificed a lot right after the passing of this crown. I mean, why do we work in the first place? First, for the family. Second, for ourselves. What’s the point of makin' all these sacrifices? Money? Prestige? Fuck, I left my 64-yr. old mom ALL ALONE in our humble abode, for God's sake! Somehow in the process, I have lost myself. I don’t know myself anymore.
It’s not worth it. Definitely not worth it.
Now, I’m excited for tomorrow.