Friday, May 9, 2008

Sleepless Nights

I've been having difficulty sleeping during the past few nights.

I'm not sure if it's physiological in nature, or maybe there are just a lot of things that have been bothering me lately.

Probably it's the latter.

While still wide awake, I would like to share with you some of my random thoughts:

  • Where's my EPEC?! Dumating ka na please! Grrr... ayoko na dito sa Pilipinas! Gusto ko na umalis! Huhuhu! =_ C

  • Should I still look for a source of income at this point (a temp job maybe?) while waitin'? Fuck! So many expenses!

  • Videoke despedida? What about the food? The drinks? Grrr. Another expense comin' up...

  • Gettin' laid before I leave? Nyahaha. Hmmm... *wink*

  • Papasundo ba ako sa airport? O kakatok na lang ako sa pinto mo? Should I just surprise you? Or am I the one to get surprised? (Siet hindi ko pa pala alam address mo! Stupid me! Grrr.)

  • Things I need to bring... (NOTE: Make a checklist!)... Birth certificate... Diploma... Transcript of Records... Employment Certificates... Bible... Prayer Books... Unread Novels... Porma clothes... Kikoy Kit...

  • (chant) Hindi ako gigimik dun! Hindi ako gigimik dun! Hindi ako gigimik dun!

  • Will I be able to get a decent job there right away? Paano kung hindi? Tapos maubusan ng pera? Balik Pinas? Siet! Scary!


  • Should I say goodbye to the lawyer before I leave? I should have pursued you that time, and never let you go... *sigh* Or maybe it's not really meant to be in the first place... *another sigh*

  • Damn Lonely Planet! You're fuckin' unreliable!

  • Fuckin' catchy names for my business ideas... (Think, Gas Dude, Think!)

  • Fuck you, Mike! I thought you're my friend! Asshole! Magsama kayo nung manghuhula! But maybe...

  • Maybe you really ARE bein' a good friend. 'Wag kang mag-alala. Mas magiging mayaman ako s'yo kahit na isa kang mayabang na architect at ako'y isang... nobody. Salamat na din kaibigan, kahit brutal ang approach mo. Asshole ka pa din sa paningin ko.

  • Pwede ba kitang tanungin ng isang malufet na "Do we still have to baby-sit you?"

  • Ano bang pwedeng iluto na masarap sa Mother's Day? Makapag-grocery nga...

  • (chant) I need to lose weight! I need to lose weight! I need to lose weight!

  • Fart! I need to call my dentist!

  • Fart! Wala pa pala clearance ko sa Petron!

  • (chant) I will get rich! I will get rich! I will get rich!

  • I'm doin' this for you, Mom. I will make your life much better this time. I love you so much. Pero paano ka na 'pag umalis ako? =_ C

  • Hindi na siya nag-reply. Baka busy sa duty. Ano bang magandang kanta?

  • Lord God, please guide me. I lift it all up to You.

Pucha! Now I know why I couldn't sleep. Sasabog na ata ang utak ko sa kakaisip...

18 comments:

  1. meditate ang sulusyon at isang bagay na ikapapagod ng katawan mo, mapapagod din ang utak mo at maiisip nyang kelangan mong magpahinga... haha! gudlucks.
    ganun talaga. ganyan ako dati pero hindi na ngayon.. may nag papaantok na sakin eh. hehe. mhuah.

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  2. man whats the world coming to? parang lahat ng taong kilala ko may problema. dito sa office ang daming nagiiyakan, aalis, inalis, lecheng italiano, etc etc.

    ako ngayon im at a point in my life where i NEED to make "THE" decision. The biggest decision i have to make in my life...

    As in everything, there will be big risks and consequences. but will the rewards make up for them?

    we cant tell. unless we take that jump.

    so bro, isa lang masasabi ko...

    pareho tayong sabog LOL!!!

    inuman naaaaaaa!!! :)

    sisikat din ang araw gas dude :)

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  3. Hahaha... lagi ko rin naeexperience ang insomnia night na yan... yung sakin nga lang eh severe na... hahhaa pero nakakatulog pa rin ako...

    Ito ang mga dahilan kung bakit na eexperience yan:

    1. MAsyadong acidic ang iyong dugo... leading to the difficulty of sleeping. Isa sa mga sanhi nyan eh yung sobrang maginom ng softdrinks o mga citric juice like purong pineapple juice.

    2. Too much siyesta... hahaha...

    Para maiwasan mo yun payo ko, drink a lot of water tapos make sure na kapag nakahiga eh mas elevated yung head mo from any other body part... in short, taasan mo unan mo. Or pakalasing na bago matulog. hahah...

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  4. masyado ka lang maraming iniisip kaya hindi ka makatulog. tutulungan kita don sa isa mong problema, don sa despedida, sabi naman sayo sa pampanga na gawin yan. ahahha! sagot na ni leyn ang lahat! ahahaha!

    yari ako nito. :D

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  5. I'm doin' this for you, Mom. I will make your life much better this time. I love you so much. Pero paano ka na 'pag umalis ako? =_ C

    -dito ako naluha ng river..lols..same lang tayu.lahat ng ginagawa ko para kay nanay lang..wala naman din kasi akong tatay.hu hu hu

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  6. Chant: damn all those beautiful lawyers, they'll have us suicidal, suicidal, when they say it's over...

    hahaha. i can relate bro. dumadating talaga sa punto na gagawa tayo ng isang step na makakapagpabago ng buhay natin. all you need is a leap of faith. kaya mo yan. dito lang kami sa likod mo. magpapagas hanggang sa huli. wag mo muna isipin yung gastos sa despidida, sino ba may gusto nun? basta ako, kahit pakape lang sa CBTL. sama si LV, CI, GP, ayz, ningning, PB my loves, at lahat ng nasa forums. hehehe

    ang bait mong anak kuya.

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  7. insan,

    wala ngang mangyayari kung hindi mo susubukan.

    "great opportunities and life-changing relationships mostly happen in the most unlikely situations."

    isa pa, bili ka sleeping pills. hehehe. =D

    goodluck!!

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  8. lol. andaming laman ng utak mo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ako rin nahihirapang matulog pag may laman e... kelangan kong mambura minsan lol.

    ngapala, ayos tugtog mo rito a hahahahha! kapag tumiboook ang pusoooo... that's sweet of u regarding ur mom again! and dude... KIKOY KIT!? LOL!!! wag ka na mag-lose weight!!!

    kahapon naman bago ako mag-duty ng gabi, hindi ako nakatulog kasi naman 10 cups nga ng tsaa ininom ko lol. cafffffffffeeeeeeeeeeeeinnnnneee!!! super literal gising ako from 10am to 6am. LOL.saklap talaga. ilang oras lang naging tulog ko. t

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  9. Hmmm...hindi kita mapayuhan, lab, kasi tarantada ako pagdating sa ganyan hehe. I don't plan, therefore I don't worry. Worrying never did anything or anybody any good.

    When I went to California, I packed my bag and left the next day I got my visa. Isang maliit na maleta lang ang dala ko, puro underwear pa nyahahaha!

    Jeez, come to think of it, I stayed there for two years! Puta, kaya pala wala akong damit hehe

    When I felt it was time to go home, again, packed my bags, bought a ticket and left the week after. That's it. Iniwan ko ang kotse ko sa kaibigan ko and I felt good about it.

    One day at a time, dude. Cross the bridge when you get there. Mas may fun ang buhay pag may surprises.

    Love like you've never been hurt before, live like there's no tomorrow and laugh, dear one. Tawanan lahat ng bad trip sa buhay.

    At saka nga pala...drink till you barf nyahaha!

    Labyu, sweetheart!

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  10. Dude, nose bleed ako. hahaha. :D

    Things will get better. God will provide.

    And you dont really need to loose weight. you're fit. tama na yan noh. hahaha :D

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  11. Ah, pwede ba kitang ipag-worry ng kahit dalawa lang diyan sa iniisip mo sa tamang halaga?

    Nagbabalak kasi ako magtayo ng business.

    "The Professional Worryers: We worry your sorry ass problems for you"

    Ahehe. Boss GasDude, lahat ng mga sigalot, merong diskarte. At lahat ng diskarte, may tamang approach. Basta merong mainam na plano, makakalusot tayo diyan.

    Ayos yan, apir!

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  12. gagayahin kita at sasabihin kong hindi na ako magco-comment sa nangyayari dito sa comment box mo... dun na lang sa actual post... mamaya natin pagusapan ang pagiging unfaithful mo! hahahhaahhahaaaa!!!

    hay crazz, kaya naman pala di ka makatulog, eh. nakaka-nosebleed ang dami ng laman ng isip mo... hindi na din ako magpapayo kasi khet ako, hindi magaling sa mga ganitong bagay. sasabihin ko na lang na i'm always here for you... just always remember that you never have to go through this alone kasi madami kang friends who are willing to share the burden.

    lastly, i wanna let you know how much i admire you kasi mahal na mahal mo ang nanay mo. how i wish na kapag lumaki ang anak ko, ganyan din siya sakin.

    take care crazz and good luck in everything that you do. mwah!

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  13. halu!
    haba ng sinabi nilang lahat...
    saken lang, tara samahan kita magpuyat, kapag sobrang antok na, makakatulog din tayo nyan...
    bakit kasi kailangan pang mag isip... :?

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  14. gasul. mahaba comments nila akin maikli lang..

    remember, the only that is certain in this lonely planet is change, death and taxes(except kung sa brunei ka nakatira, walang tax dun)..

    kung ano man plans mo, good luck. always pray.. ingats sir!

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  15. I'm having insomnia too. And it's hard. I can feel your pain! Lol. :D

    Anwyay, exchange links?

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  16. I agree with Greenpinoy.. some things we wont know unless we try.

    join din ako sa chant.. i will get rich! i will get rich! i will get rich!

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  17. dude ok na ang walang tulog kesa sa walang gising!hehe joke!

    seriously.. kahit wala akong alam sa problema mo eh eto na lang..

    here are my sleep habits..
    1. b4 going to bed take a warm shower.
    2. have a warm milk and light bedtime snack.
    3. make yourself comfortable in bed.
    4. as much as possible, try to clear your thoughts and have a control on your worries.

    if still not helping, try OTC meds for allergies. these should contain diphenhydramine.

    - just a warning.. this medication can develop drug tolerance and depedence.

    tc and Godbless!

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