A friend recently asked me, "Kumusta na kayo?"
I told him that we haven't talked since the break-up.
He was asking for the reason behind it. So I relayed to him my side of the story.
Then he asked, "Bakit hindi kayo mag-usap?"
I started thinking about it. Yeah I would like to do just that, but how? I don't know how, without passing any judgment.
So I just answered, "Maybe not now. Mas maganda siguro kung magpalamig muna kaming pareho."
I have to admit, I'm still hurting. Getting dumped really sucks. I've started to question myself. My heart's been shouting silently, "WHAT WENT WRONG THIS TIME, HUH???"
I'm also still a bit angry. Not just at her, but also at myself and the actual situation.
Yeah, it's one of those bad break-ups. Na kahit anong gawin mong pag-intindi eh hindi mo maintindihan. (I guess she could also relate to this...)
But despite all these, I'm still hoping that someday, somehow, everything would turn out fine.
Maybe, just maybe, we could be together again someday.
Or even as friends.
I would appreciate that also. Kasi mahal ko pa din siya, and I'd want her to be happy. If breaking up is her only solution to this, then who am I to oppose?
Basta lang wala nang galit at sama ng loob sa isa't isa.
I was talking to another friend the other day. I mentioned to her, "Ganun talaga ata. Kapag successful sa career, bigo ang lovelife. And vice versa."
But at the back of my mind, iniisip ko, "Hindi ba pwedeng successful pareho?"