Friday, August 8, 2008

In Time

A friend recently asked me, "Kumusta na kayo?"

I told him that we haven't talked since the break-up.

He was asking for the reason behind it. So I relayed to him my side of the story.

Then he asked, "Bakit hindi kayo mag-usap?"

I started thinking about it. Yeah I would like to do just that, but how? I don't know how, without passing any judgment.

So I just answered, "Maybe not now. Mas maganda siguro kung magpalamig muna kaming pareho."

I have to admit, I'm still hurting. Getting dumped really sucks. I've started to question myself. My heart's been shouting silently, "WHAT WENT WRONG THIS TIME, HUH???"

I'm also still a bit angry. Not just at her, but also at myself and the actual situation.

Yeah, it's one of those bad break-ups. Na kahit anong gawin mong pag-intindi eh hindi mo maintindihan. (I guess she could also relate to this...)

But despite all these, I'm still hoping that someday, somehow, everything would turn out fine.

Maybe, just maybe, we could be together again someday.

Or even as friends.

I would appreciate that also. Kasi mahal ko pa din siya, and I'd want her to be happy. If breaking up is her only solution to this, then who am I to oppose?

Basta lang wala nang galit at sama ng loob sa isa't isa.


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I was talking to another friend the other day. I mentioned to her, "Ganun talaga ata. Kapag successful sa career, bigo ang lovelife. And vice versa."

But at the back of my mind, iniisip ko, "Hindi ba pwedeng successful pareho?"


12 comments:

  1. hindi ako naniniwala sa sinasabi nilang kapag bigo sa pagibig magnda ang career or vice versa..


    basta ndi ako naniniwala...

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  2. "If breaking up is her only solution to this, then who am I to oppose?"

    - I definitely agree.. I've been there.. actually still in the process of healing... nakakarelate ako. :(

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  3. i beg to disagree that cooler heads should prevail..

    i mean, its true.. pero sino ba mainit ang ulo?? did you ask her if she wants to talk to you.. maybe she does.. maybe she doesnt.. you wont know unless you ask..

    if you really truly love her (in my opinion) its never enough or too much.. one has to keep trying and trying :D

    hoping things work out for the best.. whatever the best is... di ko makapagkwento ng maayos o magpayo kasi hirap dito e..

    hope to see you online though :P

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  4. gasul, wag ka na humirit na succesful pareho...kasi matagal ko na rin tinatanong yan bakit hindi maibigay...hehehe...

    parang kilala ko yung huling friend na binanggit mo...maganda yang friend na yun for sure...ahihihi

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  5. for sure, guwapo ung nangamusta sa iyong friend at balita ko mabait, friendl at faithful siya.

    nweis, sana maayos.

    sana magkausap na kayo...

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  6. tama ka in right time gasul magiging okey rin ang lahat at maiintindihan mo na kung bakit may mga ganitong nangyayare..saka in right time magiging swerte ka rin sa career with matching lovelayp! wait lang ng kaunti..

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  7. hindi ako naniniwala sa 'in time'.
    if you want something to happen, you do not wait for 'in time', you make now 'the' right time.

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  8. gasgas na linya na pero naniniwala akong merong "much better" na parating. nangyari sakin.

    minsan na kasi akong miyembro ng 'pindeho boys' kaya okey lang iyan.

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  9. pwede mangyari yan dre.. sucessful pareho.. basta...ano... take time to give and take... debit credit dapat diba... o kaya labas pasok.

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  10. i may not be privy to your (and her) life but sabi nga, "kahit gusto natin, kung ayaw naman Niya, at kahit ayaw natin, kung gusto naman Niya," wala tayong magagawa. sumunod na lang tayo...pero malay nyo, baka pagsubok lang to... i wish you both the best...

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  11. wala akong mai-comment...
    basta life has to go on, and yes in time... you'll know what to do.

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  12. pwede yun, in time. . .

    para sa akin, parang semi-perfect science ang love. . .parang lan ha.

    dapat right person, right time, right situation. . .or atleast, kaya mong gawing RIGHT an lahat though.

    pero wala dapat PILITAN...

    hindi ako naniniwalang nagbibigay ang Diyos ng SECOND BEST. pag hindi okay, yun ay dahil HINDI YUN ANG PARA SA IYO. pero gaya ng sabi ko, minsan, may power ka making everything right.

    aysus!

    enjoy ka lan dyan bossgasdude!

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