This is actually what I proposed to her para hindi niya ako iwan sa ere at basta ituring na kaibigan lang.
Ang usapan: she can date others, I can do the same thing. Then we can talk about it and share our experiences afterwards.
And surprisingly, she agreed and approved.
Desperation to the highest level, right? Sa sobra ko siyang gusto, naisip ko pa 'yung ganung idea, thinking that it would make her stay with me & bring back what we had before. Pero mali, na-realize ko na it's against my values at hindi ko pala kaya. I'm no Archie Andrews. Hindi ko kakayaning makitang makipag-date si Veronica Lodge kay Reggie Mantle at sa kung sino-sinong lalake. Selfish na kung selfish, pero mababaliw ako sa kaka-imagine kung anong ginagawa nila at kung gaano siya kasaya sa piling ng iba. Isa pa, masakit lang ding isipin na we started out dating exclusively for three weeks, tapos biglang magle-level down. Papahirapan ko lang ang sarili ko.
So when she told me one night that she'd be dating this Singaporean guy, hindi na ulit ako nagparamdam sa kanya. That was our last conversation, and I didn't even bother to say goodbye.
That was also the last time I've heard from her.